(un)knowing

Knowing's led to what I know
 It comes and then it goes
 Unknowing's what I've grown
 Arguments aside
 It's just a life
 Dusk gives way to night
 Then holds the light
 Felt a pain and let it last
 Let it grow with goodness and
 Future present,
 Future passed
 By the fields of cloud and bone
 Calcified, laid out like a home
 Phantom limb
 Phantom cornerstone
 Watch the way it shakes
 This knowing mind
 Do you build with higher stakes?
 Or let it lie?
 Felt a pain and let it last
 Let it grow with goodness and
 Future, present,
 Future, past.
 The slower motions of decay
 This human speed accelerates
 I dream of breathing, broken things
 I wake up on the verge of hearing
 Fields of clouds and angels ringing bells
 And stretching out their wings
 Oh, give me all your perfect things
 Your weightlessness and pure belief
 Oh God and Mary, Jesus Christ
 Won't bless me for my every vice
 I'll be redeemed in shame and grief
 In knowing I may not find peace
 I rub my eyes and hear my partner's breath
 Forget these lonely depths
 Forget the perfect and performed
 Just listen to this love unknown