Sabotage

Lightin cigarettes, clouded head
 Dirty knots, locks of dread
 Pour me up another drink
 Anything to sink my misery
 Table top, lined rows
 Sniffin high on the low
 Roll another up, feelin so un done
 All these after parties, one night stands
 Oxy with some Vicodin
 Painfully sets the mood
 My heart is numb, my mind confused
 A recipe for sabotage
 Oh I'm so lost, I'm so lost
 And I'm lonely
 These signs, they're all telling me
 What you can't see
 And I cannot think but to hurt you
 (Don't do it...)
 If it's the only way to make you learn
 You seem to forget I'm always first, surreal
 (I know... god damn)
 Inducing pain don't you go blamin
 Someone for somethin that
 You know is so wrong
 (I get it...)
 Ah ah ah. Now I'm cookin up a recipe
 And it's you who can only judge me
 You know, trust me
 (I know this...)
 I'm on my knees. Won't you help me
 Hear my pain plead. Please
 Double shots, tall cups
 Double vision, fucked up
 Lay me down can't hardly think
 Just wanting the pain to go away
 Late night falls, early morning, throwed
 I'm rollin one up
 For the sake of the road
 A substitute for the love
 I'm feeling so un done
 All these after parties, one night stands
 Codeine, percs, and DXM
 Painfully set the mood
 My heart is numb, my mind confused
 A recipe for sabotage
 Oh I'm so lost. I'm so lost, and I'm lonely
 These signs, they're all telling me
 What you can't see
 And I cannot think but to hurt you
 (Don't do it...)
 If it's the only way to make you learn
 You seem to forget I'm always first, surreal
 (I know... god damn)
 Inducing pain don't you go blamin
 Someone for somethin that
 You know is so wrong
 (I get it...)
 Ah ah ah. Now I'm cookin up a recipe
 And it's you who can only judge me
 You know...
 (Dammit I know this...)
 I'm on my knees. Won't you help me
 Hear my pain plead. Please
 You told me...
 I love you more than you love yourself
 And you don't realize that
 You told me you're emotionally detached
 And with that I can understand the fact
 You also told me you have no expectation
 When it comes to me
 And in reality I can say the same for myself
 And sometimes it's hard to see the light
 When you're suffering in the dark
 It's a toxic love that can tear you apart
 I been thinkin bout ya
 Thinkin bout me, baby, I mean all day
 I know what I'm givin to ya
 And I know it ain't short from cold
 I been sinkin down, ridin round
 Heavy in a dark place
 I know it hurts when ya hear it
 I hope you know, I know
 I keep the drugs on me baby
 You ain't never come in first place
 I got the flask full
 Always wit the rum, never low, you know
 I know it hurts when ya hear it
 But I'm bein honest, always
 You see...
 I have a toxic kind of love for you, yeah, yeah
 I have a toxic kind of love with you, yeah, yeah
 I have a toxic kind of love for you, yeah, yeah
 I have a toxic kind of love to you
 I gotta be numb to ya
 Like my mindset always
 I sniff a line, puff a drag, take a shot. Oh
 It ain't easy for me baby
 Pain pumpin throughout my veins
 I can't stop it. Can't stop
 I have a toxic kind of love for you
 I have a toxic kind of love with you
 Oh I, Oh I
 I know I know, oh I