Rain, Scars, and the Climb

Tears are falling like rain
 And tenderly they caress
 My wounded skin
 I remember everything I lived
 Every scar on me is a painful memory
 I'm chasing sweet illusions of joy
 But it seems I can't reach them
 I'm swallowing Ketazolam pills
 For making my mind slowly numb
 I'm feeling so empty and sorrowful
 I only desire to die in this emptiness
 My subconcious is stopping me again
 From falling down this climb
 Let me do it
 Don't stop me again
 Let me go
 Don't hold me right now
 All the treatments didn't work
 And I'm suicidal again
 I wish to sleep forever
 I don't care about living anymore
 My last breath will be exhaled
 Into deep, dark, waters
 Slowly sinking, dying, and resting
 In the eternal peace given