Repudiation (New Years Eve)

Hey!
 I just wanna say
 This is really great
 The way you pick apart
 Every little thing
 You hold your golden fleece
 Above for I am weak
 Another reproach to prove that I'm wrong
 Doleful and disconsolate morose you leave me (forlorn)
 Take a breath and then try to assess but I just can't stop (can't stop)
 Narcissistic charlatan, you're so convincing (feeling)
 Wretch and abhor every gesture
 Curse my name and desecrate
 The stars I hung for you!
 Can we fall asleep tonight
 And make believe we're both alright?
 And to you, I say 'goodnight!'
 Promise me you'll leave my dreams
 'Cause I can't bear to be happy
 And to you, I say 'goodnight!'
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 Damn!
 Can't believe we said
 All the things we did
 Hurtful words you say
 Stab into my neck
 The bond we have is weak
 Strained and frayed for weeks
 I never wanted for it to come to this
 Try to cope with losing hope while you resent me (lying)
 Find yourself in someone else, deception's breeding
 (Over and over again now)
 Conscious efforts made despite our understanding (breaking)
 My word, such nerve
 Furtive malice, selfish prowess
 Eroding my sense of worth
 Can we fall asleep tonight
 And make believe we're both alright?
 And to you, I say 'goodnight!'
 Promise me you'll leave my dreams
 'Cause I can't bear to be happy
 And to you, I say 'goodnight!'
 So I choose to light the pyre
 Watch it burn down the room and
 We both choose to expire
 We'll burn alone
 We'll burn in hell
 Cinch every thread so you'll never leave
 Meticulously ripping at every seam
 Stoic no longer, just let me leave
 Altruistic misdeeds breed catastrophe
 Pandering merely for decency
 My own reservations have leveled me
 Fabric that reeks off deceit
 Why oh, why can we not sleep?
 Fray these strings and finally cease
 Can we fall asleep tonight?
 And pray for sleep before the light
 Though I don't know what to do
 When I'm awake