A Heart to Judge

Everyone I hate is forever by my side and with a smile I can affirm
 they will never go.
 So I ask: "
 Who will betray me now?" I belived in you,
 did you ever belive in me?
 Even just once?
 How could I tell anyway...?
 You fed me lies
 upon lies, swallowing those insidious snakes and turning me into one.
 Bow your head and pray
 among the sinners and believers,
 that specific burnt scent, suffocating while breathing ashes
 of devotion, lungs filled with the burnt souvenir of loved ones.
 With my hands, I rip out and present my heart for your judgement.
 Chin up high with pride I would have,
 closed my eyes in trust, scorched ears with venomus talk.
 Oh, the others, how they invade me.
 When did one allow such things?
 You caress made me believe that hurting
 anyone would never be a goal you could not keep