Silver Dagger and the Breathless Smile

Live among your demons, Nights without end - Eternal.
 The damaged hand caressing a doll, a silver dagger & hidden smile.
 It isn't sweet,
 she devours me with her blank eyes &
 breathless smile, providing me what I want.
 Drops of blood and sweat encircle wrists - each scent to recall and
 stimulate senses fitting like a glove,
 hate as a surrounding skin and bones trembling,
 watching each Phalanx one by one, remembering where they were,
 and their purpose, all at once without warning,
 she stood there close to me with each chant,
 she could hear my heart beat more and more she stares
 at me; I do not expect any more than she has to offer.
 Fertile womb destroyed, I exhale in welcome,
 disgusting offering to God,
 I will let you wear my skin and shine through my scars,
 such beauty, pure and free, I open up my heart and let you shine.