Bitter

I wish that I could be numb
 I wish that this would be easier (easier)
 I think I'm coming undone
 How long do I have to feel this hurt? (feel this hurt)
 Feels like I'm fading away
 Damaged bones break under the weight
 How long 'til it's too late?
 Maybe I'll be better off this way
 I'm losing all control now
 I sold my soul for a cigarette
 I thought that I would care by now
 But somehow letting go won't feel so bad
 Searching for a brighter view
 But it's clear that I'm so lost
 Will it be the fall that kills me
 Or the sudden stop?
 Was it ever enough?
 (I'm uneasy in my current state)
 (It's eating me alive from the inside)
 The pressure weighs me down
 Will I float or drown?
 Suspense is killing me
 I'm losing all control now
 I sold my soul for a cigarette
 I thought that I would care by now
 But somehow letting go won't feel so bad
 They say the guilty never truly rest
 Is that why I lie awake in bed?
 The bitter memories in my head
 Are all that I have left
 I'm losing all control now
 I sold my soul for a cigarette
 I thought that I would care by now
 But somehow letting go won't feel so bad
 They say the guilty never truly rest
 Is that why I lie awake in bed? (awake in bed)
 The bitter memories in my head
 Are all that I have left