Something to Feel

If I could bring these feelings to life
 Then they would become the rope
 I would tie them around my neck
 So the whole world could watch me choke
 Now here lies a broken man
 Defective and diseased (Defective and diseased)
 Maybe one day someone will see
 The very best in me
 Why does it have to be me?
 I'm searching for love
 I'm searching for answers
 I'm trying to find my way out of this nightmare
 I'm hopelessly lost
 So cold and abandoned
 I'm trying to feel what is real
 How many times will it take for me to get the memo?
 Hands begin to shake
 Heart begins to ache from burdens that have left me shallow
 Why do I let them in?
 Only to let them down?
 With good intentions comes the risk of leaving them to drown
 I can't seem to understand
 Or grasp the reasons why
 I'm stuck in this cycle of misery
 While the rest just leave me behind
 Friend, do you remember when you called me brother?
 Father, did you care to think about your son?
 Lover, what happened to forever?
 Left alone, I think I'm going numb
 Friend, why did you have to let me go?
 Father, why did you take your life?
 Lover, was I never enough?
 Left alone and out of time
 I'm searching for love
 I'm searching for answers
 I'm trying to find my way out of this nightmare
 I'm hopelessly lost
 So cold and abandoned
 I'm trying to feel what is real
 There is nothing left to feel
 There is nothing left to feel
 There is nothing left to feel (Nothing left to feel)
 There is nothing left to feel (Nothing left to feel)
 There is nothing left to feel (Nothing left to feel)
 Except the blade beneath my skin (Blade beneath my skin)
 There is nothing left to feel (Nothing left to feel)
 There is nothing left to feel (Nothing left to feel)
 There is nothing left to feel (Nothing left to feel)
 Except the blade that's beneath