Before My Friends Do

I think I hope I die before my friends do
 Because the alternative makes my stomach hurt sometimes
 When I say "friends" I mean family I like too
 The second tear friends I could horribly get through
 Now my life has shame (on me now)
 This is not nostalgia, this is not the past
 And if it's gonna end external like a stupid car crash
 Regardless of my body, regardless of my weight
 Wouldn't it be nice if I could say
 "I won't change and you won't change, if we could both agree to stay the same
 Well then for once in this life I would not complain, if we could both agree to stay the same"
 Let me tell you about this crazy list
 The best relative order of the people I know's deaths
 According to partners, handlings, etcetera, etcetera, etcetera, yeah
 So let's be safe because it's on me
 I have spacesuits for you and a spacesuit for me
 Spacesuits for everyone, spacesuits for everyone
 Spacesuits for everyone, spacesuits for everyone
 This is not nostalgia, this is not the past
 And if it's gonna end external like a stupid car crash
 Regardless of my body, regardless of my weight
 Wouldn't it be stupid if I were to say
 "I won't change and you won't change, and we could both agree to stay the same
 Well then for once in this life I would not complain, if we could both agree to stay the same"
 I hope I die before my friends do