Behind Closed Doors

I want nothing more
 than to fill this hole inside my heart
 or else in my head
 shoot me dead
 'cause the pain never leaves
 I want to lie with the deceased
 and rid myself of all these thoughts that circle me
 but then again in the end
 that's what brought me here initially
 One man, two souls
 He leads, I follow
 One man, two souls, he leads, I follow
 I'm left to deal with wounds that won't heal
 and only I know the way the blood flows
 inside my veins
 could this be my last night amoungst the pains of sight?
 There's a man that you see with the innocent face
 Then there's the man that I feel who's made a mess of this place
 My place, my home
 where I'm left to be alone
 It's the last thing I had to myself
 now his hands plaster my bones
 There's a stench in my soul
 as my gut rots
 this lack of faith in control
 Nothing makes sense
 My head's in my hands
 There's fractures and dents
 And I don't know which wall to throw it against
 The ones who can't think or breathe
 will make the best of company
 A family who would want the same for me
 a bed of wooden sheets
 Drill into my brain
 Please just this once, treat me like you would the mentally insane
 strap me down
 fix me, fix me
 make me believe that im one step closer sanity
 One step closer to finally getting my closure
 The ones who can't think or breathe will make the best of company
 A family who would want the same for me
 a bed of wooden sheets