4am // Disappear

Passed out at 4am
 Woke up on the floor again
 Searching through the time I spent
 Wasted on what's never meant
 I just miss the life I had
 Missed out since like 2010
 I just wonder where I've been
 Nobody knows I've been on my own
 Feeling so alone, stuck inside
 I keep thinking 'bout the reasons why
 All my life I've been searching for some clues
 Only feeling more confused
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 It took a lot of work to be standing here
 I went through lots of pain to be very clear
 But that's the only way I ever lеarned
 You have to pay for all the bridges burnt
 Just let me out of here
 I want to disappear
 Nobody understands
 All the space that I demand
 I get stuck in overdrive
 That's the reason I'm alive
 Feeling dead at 23
 That's just not the way to be
 I just shrug it off
 I just take it as it comes
 I just shrug it off
 I'm always feeling kind of numb
 I just shrug it off
 I just take it as it comes
 I just shrug it off
 I'm always feeling kind of numb
 I'm giving up the chase
 I don't want to feel like I'm losing pace
 But I don't wanna fall right back in place
 Living by myself with the same mistakes
 Cover up the pain that I can't decay
 Living in a space that I can't explain
 So let me tell you how it's gonna be
 Giving up on life is not a choice for me
 Burning out but still complete
 Sinking down in disbelief
 Running out of energy
 To fix the wounds that I received
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 It took a lot of work to be standing here
 I went through lots of pain to be very clear
 But that's the only way I ever lеarned
 You have to pay for all the bridges burnt
 Just let me out of here
 I want to disappear
 Nobody understands
 All the space that I demand
 I get stuck in overdrive
 That's the reason I'm alive
 Feeling dead at 23
 That's just not the way to be
 And all my life I just tried to put it off
 I never shook it off
 And all my life I just tried to build a wall
 That would never fall
 And all my life I just tried to put it off
 I never shook it off
 And all my life I just tried to build a wall
 That would never fall
 Just let me out of here
 I want to disappear
 Nobody understands
 All the space that I demand
 I get stuck in overdrive
 That's the reason I'm alive
 Feeling dead at 23
 That's just not the way to be
 Just let me out of here
 I want to disappear
 Nobody understands
 All the space that I demand
 I get stuck in overdrive
 That's the reason I'm alive
 Feeling dead at 23
 That's just not the way to be
 ♪
 Passed out at 4am
 Woke up on the floor again
 Searching through the time I spent
 Wasted on what's never meant
 I just miss the life I had
 Missed out since like 2010
 I just wonder where I've been