Maplewood

There's no time for things that I perceive
 as bringing out the worst in me
 It's hard enough to get up off the ground
 But I'm holding onto useless thoughts
 of a fight I wish I never fought
 And now my back's against the wall
 At least there's nowhere left to fall
 Just the time it took to fix my lack of trust
 I do all I can, but still it's not enough
 Now I'm holding on to shed this ball and chain
 I tried, but I'm still dragging dead weight
 I'm lusting for the little things I love
 I never learned with any self-control
 Guess I just couldn't bring myself to care
 So many years I wasn't there
 Now I'm living with no time to spare
 My pattern overthinking isn't scarce
 I just couldn't bring myself to care
 Myself to care
 And now
 my back's against the wall At least there's nowhere left to fall Just
 the time it took to fix my lack of trust I do all I can,
 but still it's not enough
 Now I'm holding on to shed this ball and chain
 I tried, but I'm still dragging dead weight