Trying

Oh I can't get out
 Invisible handcuffs locked on me
 Been praying for my period all week
 And relief that I just can't see
 I question everything
 My focus, my figure, my sexuality
 And how much it matters or why it would mean anything
 I can't keep it together, I've been better
 I've been thinking about it every night
 I'm trying, I am
 I'm trying, I am
 Trying to hide from my mind, I am
 Trying all the time, I am
 Trying to hide from my mind, I am
 Trying, trying all of mine
 I can't get out
 There's no flawless education
 Just a stupid degree
 The feeling of growing so far from myself
 I can't reach, I can't reach, I can't reach
 So brush it off, 'cos I want it bad
 And there's no dusting up
 When you walk like that, here's a ship
 There's a wick that will keep yourself in check cause
 All these loaded questions gonna eat you alive
 I'm trying, I am
 I'm trying, I am
 Trying to hide from my mind, I am
 Trying all the time, I am
 Trying to hide from my mind, I am
 Trying, trying
 Why am I?
 If it counts for anything
 I didn't want to
 I'm just looking for clarity
 To help me to get through
 If you're set in your ways
 What can I do? Ease up
 So that I can break it down for you can't
 feed a beast you
 leave unleashed it'll
 come right back to you
 I'm trying
 Trying to hide from my mind, I am
 Trying all the time, I am
 Trying to hide from my mind, I am
 Trying, trying
 Why am I?
 Why am i?
 Why am I?
 Why am I?