My Anxiety

I've been so close I can taste it
 I've been so far, I've been patient
 I take a bar and get wasted
 Part of my brain is erased when
 I go to Mars in a spaceship
 It's written all on my face and no one relates
 I don't know how long I can take it
 You want a smile, I'ma fake it, copy and paste it
 That's an alright imitation
 Yeah
 I find it hard to describe my anxiety
 Feel like my heart and my mind got a rivalry
 Feel like my thoughts and emotions are fighting inside of me
 I gotta get this shit out of me
 I feel like Forrest, I'm running from everything
 I never saw that shit in its entirety
 If you need someone to get something 90% done and quit on it
 You should just hire me
 I'm feeling closer to death
 I feel a hole in my chest
 Feel like I'm stuck underwater
 Feel like I'm holding my breath
 Like it's the only one left
 Nobody know I'm depressed
 Even the people that know me the best
 I called my momma, she told me to rest
 I only get out of bed to get more cigarettes
 Yeah
 I've been so close I can taste it
 I've been so far, I've been patient
 I take a bar and get wasted
 Part of my brain is erased when
 I go to Mars in a spaceship
 It's written all on my face and no one relates
 I don't know how long I can take it
 You want a smile, I'ma fake it, copy and paste it
 That's an alright imitation
 Yeah
 Is someone coming to save me?
 I'm faded, it don't even phase me
 I've had a hater that's showing me love
 And I've had a lover betray me
 I've had a lot of lessons, still got a lot of questions, still don't got any answers
 Eat your veggies, pray for a lotta blessings, die from like 20 cancers
 That's why I'm taking these drugs
 That's why I'm up til the morning
 Shot after shot, after shot, I can't stop it, I'm zoning
 Shrugging like Jordan did playing against Portland
 Still can't afford all the shit that I need
 I get too anxious when I hit the weed
 I take a pill and I'm feeling relieved
 I take another, I triple the speed
 I've been so close I can taste it
 I've been so far, I've been patient
 I take a bar and get wasted
 Part of my brain is erased when
 I go to Mars in a spaceship
 It's written all on my face and no one relates
 I don't know how long I can take it
 You want a smile, I'ma fake it, copy and paste it
 That's an alright imitation
 Yeah
 That's an alright imitation, yeah
 That's an alright imitation, yeah
 That's an alright imit-, that's an alright imitation, yeah
 I'm looking happy online, but it's not what you think
 I'm losing touch if I'm touching a screen
 One minute, I think I love everybody
 And then I'm like fuck everything
 I'm looking happy online, but it's not what you think
 I'm losing touch if I'm touching a screen
 One minute, I think I love everybody
 And then I'm like fuck everything
 On a highway to hell, or a stairway to heaven
 And I'm stuck in the middle, I can't make a decision
 I don't think I'm suicidal, but if I was, I won't admit it
 Like I'd be okay with dying, if I'm not the one that did it
 I've been so close I can taste it
 I've been so far, I've been patient
 I take a bar and get wasted
 Part of my brain is erased when
 I go to Mars in a spaceship
 It's written all on my face and no one relates
 I don't know how long I can take it
 You want a smile, I'ma fake it, copy and paste it
 That's an alright imitation
 Yeah
 That's an alright imitation, yeah
 That's an alright imitation, yeah
 That's an alright imit-, that's an alright imitation, that's an alright imitation, yeah