Wake Up, The Monster Said

Wake up beaten, but I'm broken in two
 With a head full of money and nothing to do
 Face in the dirt, I can dream myself to life
 Alarm bells screaming and the message is clear
 I don't think that I fix myself this time of the year
 Caught in a loop my steam begins to fight
 Trying to get better but I've got no answers (Woah)
 Stabbing my heart just to cut out the cancer (Woah)
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 It's getting pulled over for a place I'm stuck in
 I've never been so lonely or so pale, or thin
 The pills don't jump but it's all I know and I'm feeling the monster in me
 Killing off the hours is progress of sorts
 I think the words are comforts but I check in resorts
 The hour, the essay, the book and the study are lying
 How to conceal what's killing me
 Trying to get better but I've got no answers (Woah)
 Stabbing my heart just to cut out the cancer (Woah)
 Inspecting my head forever after
 They aren't the ones, and they won't be simple as well
 But these bones have a home, they beckon me
 And my chest is a maze
 While my tongue talks itself in knots
 But I'm not a poster boy for good health
 'Cause I can hardly stay awake, and I'm barely holding on
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 Trying to get better but I've got no answers (Woah)
 Stabbing my heart just to cut out the cancer (Woah)
 Inspecting my head forever after
 They aren't the ones, and they won't be simple as well
 But these bones have a home, they beckon me
 Let's take a walk down every lane I've been