Bloom

I aged by days on afternoons behind those shades
 In a darkened room my body lay, tumours blooming in my brain
 I am consumed by an unfulfilling sadness, not even misery loves me
 I am alone, and I'm afraid I always will be
 My mother knows that I am sick but I hate that she can't understand
 That whilst I am grateful for her love it won't stop the shaking of my hands
 I can't apologise enough
 
 I live a life devoid of love
 And I always thought I could escape this
 Like silence would help me to sleep
 I found no bliss in my ignorance
 I found no love where you said it would be
 No heaven without hell beneath, no misery before you and me
 Too busy pulling out my teeth to bite the hand that made me weak
 No heaven without hell beneath, no misery before you and me
 Too busy pulling out my teeth to bite the hand that made me weak
 I sleep with discontent
 Sorrow creeps around my neck and I fear that I may choke to death
 Your name still hangs in every note
 And I've tried to fumigate my throat, just as together as we are alone
 No heaven without hell beneath, no misery before you and me
 Too busy pulling out my teeth to bite the hand that made me weak
 No heaven without hell beneath, no misery before you and me
 Too busy pulling out my teeth to bite the hand that made me weak