Cavities

You were convulsing in the next room
 So I lay awake in bed
 Prayed to a God I don't believe in
 So that he may keep you safe
 I could hear my father's fingers
 Carve their way into the wood of your door frame
 Mother shaking
 As your eyes rolled back into your head again
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 Just as we thought death would prevail
 Febrile response gave way to pale
 Cavities to fingernails
 Anxiety had left me frail
 But I felt then as I feel now
 Despite the detriment you've faced
 It is your warmth that's made me proud
 Though I barely remember
 It was you who smoothed my ache
 In the depth of my depression
 I thought my life was mine to take
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 But I am forever in your debt
 For things that you could never say
 All the love that I have felt
 You gave, with no intention to take
 I am as the moon
 Any affection that my glow is the subject of
 Belongs to you
 For I am nothing more than a reflection of you
 And your love