Mess of Me

My charade, my charade
 My grenade, my grenade
 My charade, my charade
 My grenade, my grenade
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 Stay on the inside
 Don't let your secret out
 Reveal the landslide
 That's always pouring
 Down, down like the rain
 Can you see me drownin'?
 Drifting away
 They'll never understand
 Why I disappear
 The voices that I hear
 Calling me into the darkness
 I'll breathe in, I'll breathe out
 So sick of holding it down
 Where no one sees
 This mess of me
 It's okay, I'm alright
 Even though I'm dyin' inside
 I'm never free
 Of this mess of me
 A test for demons
 Conceal this double life
 No rhyme or reason
 For the war behind these
 Eyes, don't get too close
 Do you see what I see?
 Haunting like a ghost
 I'm never free
 I'll breathe in, I'll breathe out
 So sick of holding it down
 Where no one sees
 This mess of me
 It's okay, I'm alright
 Even though I'm dyin' inside
 I'm never free
 Of this mess of me
 This mess of me
 No, I'm never free
 My charade, my grenade
 I will lie for you
 I will follow you until the end
 I'm ashamed, I'm afraid
 If they knew the truth of my abuse
 What would they do?
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 What would they do?
 My charade, my grenade
 If they knew the truth of my abuse
 I'll breathe in, I'll breathe out
 So sick of holding it down
 Where no one sees
 This mess of me
 It's okay, I'm alright
 Even though I'm dyin' inside
 I'm never free
 Oh, of this mess of me
 I'm never free
 Of this mess of me