Fever Dream

Maybe I could just stop
 Drilling it into my head
 So I can catch my breath again
 Lately I've been so lost
 Watching time pass from my bed
 Through eyes I'd fix at any cost
 I thought it'd be over by now,
 But I've been relapsing again, I'm relapsing again
 I'm still trying to figure out my new skin
 There's so much to comprehend
 Still time and again
 All these fever dreams wear down my mind
 When I wake up traumatized
 They're all waiting for songs from you
 (This is not your demise)
 All of my anxieties aligned
 It'll take a little time
 To break out of the mental zoo
 (Don't fear dead butterflies)
 Hazy electroshock
 Keeping myself underfed
 It's all my fault I feel this way
 Pacing through a head shop
 Buying alternative meds
 So I feel like myself again
 I thought it'd be over by now,
 But I've been relapsing again, I'm relapsing again
 I'm still trying to figure out my new skin
 There's so much to comprehend
 Still time and again
 All these fever dreams wear down my mind
 When I wake up traumatized
 They're all waiting for songs from you
 (This is not your demise)
 All of my anxieties aligned
 It'll take a little time
 To break out of the mental zoo
 (Don't fear dead butterflies)
 I know you want me back
 So I'll help you find a way
 This ain't how it's gotta be
 Don't you go back to black
 This is how it's gotta stay
 Take it all just day by day
 Fight through all your setbacks
 They can make or break your brain
 Just don't harbor all the pain
 I had my soul attacked
 Turned down thoughts of suicide
 Cuz I just want to live my life again
 (Cuz I just want to live my life again)