Drug Addiction

Colicchie (Colicchie)
 You see everybody got a story to tell (story to tell)
 Well, here's mine (well, here's mine)
 My pain's deep, I have been through hell (been through hell)
 I managed to survive, so I got a story to tell
 Listen, I stand victorious, make the sign of the cross
 Look, I'm here to be the voice for every friend I've ever lost (friend I've ever lost)
 Let me pray as I put together my hands
 I've never been ashamed to tell you the person I am
 When it comes to doin' drugs, I have never been a rookie
 But hold up, lemme tell you about the places that they took me (took me)
 I haven't showered, it's been possibly a week
 And I'm so deep in a psychosis, impossible to speak
 The coke is in my arm, now it's impossible to sleep
 My throat's numb, closed shut, so it's impossible to eat (impossible to eat)
 Losing weight's a part of my daily routine
 I always use against my will, just prayin' I was clean (I was clean)
 So nod your head if you understand what I mean
 When I was growin' up I never thought that I would be a fiend, ever
 My life's tumultuous, it's never gettin' better
 Another abscess from my arm is gettin' severed (gettin' severed)
 My exquisite vision, depiction of dereliction
 Livid living conditions, malicious on a mission
 All these Green Tree cops, look, they all know me by my first name
 Paramedics had to revive me, this ain't a game
 I worn the same clothes for like the last ten days
 And look, I wanna do better, but I don't know a different way (different way)
 Completely all alone, I'm sittin' in this room
 I empty out the bags, brown liquid in the spoon
 I have to do a lot, can no longer do a little
 The water's been added, I place the cotton in the middle (cotton in the middle)
 I'm suckin' every drop up into this plastic device
 As I'm tyin' off I'm tryna find a decent vein to strike
 I shove it ever so gently up underneath my skin
 As I am pullin' back the plunger 'til there is blood in the syringe (blood in the syringe)
 I push it in and try to drift away to heaven
 But criminals like me, that's never the place that we're headed
 The guilt, shame, remorse and regret I never address
 And I'm a mess from all this pain and this anguish, I'm filled with stress
 Overdoses, I'm emotionally broken, this ain't a joke (ain't a joke)
 I'm smokin' on a Newport, I never have any hope (never have any hope)
 This is me, I'm feelin' like I don't deserve more
 I feel disgusted as I'm pushin' on this burnt chore
 Someone stole the vinegar in the midst of a blackout
 Another shootin' gallery, another crack house
 On the porch "Welcome to hell" is on the floor mat
 I'm glancin' at my arms and all I ever see are sore tracks
 I'm feelin' filthy, dirty needles with the orange caps
 Peakin' out the window, someone whispers, "Lock the door latch"
 We're blastin' off, departin' from this mothership
 I look around as others search the carpet for another hit (another hit)
 Crest whitening strips and Mach 3's
 I'm on a suicidal mission 'til these cops try to stop me
 We boosted every day, sellin' steaks for half price
 Any dream I ever had was shattered by glass pipes (glass pipes)
 Glass rose, Devil got my in his lasso
 Entered the gates of hell and I didn't even have a pass-code
 I'm hard-headed, I will never learn my lesson (learn my lesson)
 You know the drill, commit a crime, and get arrested
 The misery never ends, I spend another week in jail
 I don't have friends, family never paid my bail
 So I would withdrawal and kick on that concrete floor (concrete floor)
 I feel like I've had enough, but my body is screamin' more
 The food is horrible, but I haven't eaten in days
 No reason to call home 'cause I got nothin' left to say (left to say)
 I'm tired of this jail, I don't ever wanna see prison
 Look, I'm tired and exhausted from this life that I am livin'
 I would get a couple of days clean, and say that I was done
 But every time I got released I was back on the run
 It's back to thievin', lyin', robbin', and rippin', and runnin'
 These problems, I don't solve 'em, I'm crippled and sick to my stomach (sick to my stomach)
 I hang with prostitutes and these deadly degenerates
 I'm homeless for the moment, but that's really quite irrelevant
 The only thing that matters in life is my next high
 I gotta be willin' to change and give it my best try (my best try)
 I'm a servant and this heroin's my king
 I'm feelin' like a slave, as I dangle from these puppet strings
 I'm just a marionette, I'm starin' at death
 As I am carryin' regrets that are just tearin' through my flesh
 We're dealin' with a topic we're so careless to neglect
 We're dealin' with a dilemma leavin' every parent stressed
 I'm so sick and tired though of being sick and tired
 But then it finally happened, motivated by desire (by desire)
 I hit this point, I wanted to change, enough is enough
 My effort's been exhausted, and I'm tired of being stuck
 My faith is never blind and my future I barely see
 But overnight, was open-minded I had this moment of clarity (moment of clarity)
 So it begins and it's essential I believe
 'Cause if it worked for you, then it just has to work for me (work for me)
 Through all this pain, there's got to be a positive message
 I talked about the past, now let's talk about the present (talk about the present)
 I'm no longer livin' that way, for me it's a blessin'
 But with one bad decision, I am back in that obsession
 In '03 was diagnosed with Hepatitis-C
 I utilize the bad, it's always been the fuel for drivin' me
 And then you ask me, why do I give this my all?
 I'm not tryna see "Rest In peace" on my Facebook wall (Facebook wall)
 I got clean in '05 and started rappin'
 I started touchin' lives, I never thought that this would happen (this would happen)
 This shit today, trust me it isn't heroin
 It's killin' everybody, and the comments are disparagin' (disparagin')
 No-one cares or gives a fuck that I'm clean
 For them, another deadly overdose is just somethin' to see
 Look, I pay attention to every post that I read
 As you were sittin' there judgin' in front of your iPhone screen (iPhone screen)
 Talkin' about these dyin' addicts and how they are worthless
 And if they put a needle in their arm, then they deserve it
 But that's someone's mother, someone's uncle, someone's daughter
 And that's someone's aunt, someone's son and someone's father (someone's father)
 As I rap, this shit is givin' me chills
 And I am speakin' off experience, that's how I know it's real
 These ignorant motherfuckers will say it's not a disease
 And look, I really don't care, you can believe what you believe
 I don't care to argue, I don't gotta give you proof
 Listen, I was taught you don't gotta defend the truth
 Incurable, progressive and fatal unless arrested
 I'm expressin' aggression with every sentiment confession (confession)
 "Once a junkie, always a junkie," you're borin' me
 The last time I checked, there's one ultimate authority
 I'm sick of these remarks and opinions from all these critics
 'Cause if you never lived it, then trust me you'll never get it (never get it)
 Be quiet, (be quiet) you're not allowed to speak about it
 If you've never lived it, then you're not allowed to speak about it(speak about it)
 How often you forget
 The only time that you should ever open your mouth is to eat a dick (eat a dick)
 Everybody is dyin', it makes me sick
 This isn't an epidemic, this is more like an apocalypse
 So when I struggle, it's only right that I fight
 And my experience recites on how that diamond saved my life for (saved my life for)
 Look, you don't got a clue what I've been through
 When I was at my worst, you couldn't walk a mile in my shoes
 I survived a lot, so it's only right that I smile
 And I'm aware of my surroundings, I'm no longer in denial (in denial)
 I'm blown away by every message that I get
 It gives me motivation, it's the only reason I never quit (I never quit)
 We gotta do this together, we must trust (we must try)
 There's no you, there's no me, there's just us (just us)
 I'm doin' this with courage, I'm doin' this with pride
 I'm doin' this for every single friend that's ever died
 I dedicate this song to anyone that's lost a loved one
 So live your life 'cause tomorrow may never come
 Be grateful for your past, embrace it, don't get embarrassed
 Every day there is more children growin' up without their parents (without their parents)
 I felt pain, look, I'm not afraid to cry (not afraid to cry)
 My life changed once I was willin' to try
 I've been given many chances, now It's truly do or die
 I'm doin' what it takes, so my daughter will never see me high (never see me high)
 I'm doin' what it takes, so my daughter will never see me high (see me high...)
 I'm doin' what it takes, so my daughter will never see me high (see me high...)
 I'm doin' what it takes, so my daughter will never see me high (see me high...)
 I'm doin' what it takes, so my daughter will never see me high (see me high...)