Haunt

The span of the last ten years has only made this harder to cope with
 Still trying to forgive your abandonment
 brought to light in pestilential sunsets
 Reminding me that I'll wake up to another morning of disorder
 And I never got to say goodbye
 My heart is tired from recollecting every moment spent together
 And I would burn them from my brain if I could
 So cauterize every synapse I have in exchange
 For forgetting you were buried on my birthday
 I am still bereaved
 Is the cancer coming after me?
 Am I who I should be?
 Is the sickness welling up in me?
 I am incomplete
 You are the missing piece
 The thought of you in a hospital bed has
 awoken the fear of my youth and the absence you left
 Even if the pain goes overlooked
 I'll fight my way through with every pulse in my wrist
 Even if I believed you could hear me
 I'd still want you to know that I am who I am
 For myself and no one else
 For myself and no one, I am who I am