Carrier

Here at the crux of my unbelief
 I find truth in nothing and no one
 Even though I'm proud of what I've done
 I hate who I've become
 Tell me how I'm supposed to feel
 When the only thing I think is real
 Is how often I've come to admit that my hope is fleeting
 Tell me what I'm supposed to think
 Never questioning anything
 Seeing life through innocent eyes, burned into memory
 I burden myself with aspiration and purpose
 Set it all ablaze with empty intentions
 I hope you haven't given up on me
 I give you everything I have, take my unbelief
 Drown me in the grace I take for granted
 From all the doubt that anchors me, I am finally free
 Set free from my misery
 Drifting further away from truth, carry me back to You
 Every regret hails on me
 I'm treading water, sink or swim
 The tide is pulling me limb from limb
 Carry on, You have always known my name
 Bring me back to You
 This is not who I want to be
 Carry on, You have always known my name
 Take me back, this is not who I want to be