Forgive Me

I take a walk outside to remind myself
 That im not the only one living in this hell
 I know i'll probly need some help
 Cuz I can't take it
 I walk a couple blocks to the liquor store
 I know I've been down this path before
 Lost so many friends to addiction
 But I still cant shake it
 Should I pray to a God that I dont see
 Should I fake a smile when you all see me
 Knowing if you knew the real me
 (i cant understand this part)
 and I cant seem to love myself I guess
 Staring at the ugly I possess
 Hopin you'll forgive me for the mess
 I'm finally at peace, no one can save me
 I'm finally at peace, no one can save me
 Couldn't take it.
 Breakin inside of me.
 Holdin inside of me
 Breakin inside of me till im dead
 Hoping reality thrives me some sanity
 breakin inside of me ... till im dead
 In my time alone all that I find is fear
 Visions of your face . Slowly dissapear
 and you dont know you killed me. Do you?
 You dont know im dying just despite you.
 I waited by the phone, my visions not so clear
 this poison crossed my soul,
 I really wish you were here.
 but it seems like all I am just fades away
 Fades Away
 Breakin inside of me
 Holdin inside of me
 Breakin inside of me, till im dead
 Hoping reality thrives me some sanity
 breakin inside of me, till im dead
 Shame that Im a sinner
 Talk with each other
 Walk with one another
 Drugged and the needles
 Two sided people,
 please come together
 Can we find a reason
 for peace this evening
 No more crying mother
 We're blinded for a reason
 Let's go fight the demons
 Let's conquer ourselves we're
 not hog one another
 kill one another
 shoot one another
 no more crying mothers
 dont take our brothers
 we walk with each other
 its such a sadening thing to see
 We can't trust, trust one another
 If you've seen what I do
 Then you'd know why we suffer
 Breakin inside of me
 Holdin inside of me
 Breakin inside of me, till im dead
 Hoping reality thrives me some sanity
 Breakin inside of me, till im dead