Imagination

It's all for nothing
 Everything I've done
 Drowning under water
 Thinking, what have I become?
 I can't feel a thing
 Fuck, I think I'm going numb
 Maybe I'm insane
 I'm just not enough
 Crying out for help, but this isn't an act
 I been broken, I feel hopeless
 Damn it, this is a fact
 It's like why you think I always spit my pain these tracks
 Because I'm running from myself
 I write this shit to relax
 Maybe I was made in somebody's imagination
 Listen, you don't know me, you're not in my situation
 There's things going on here, they need examination
 And nobody but me will ever know that information
 I lost certain things that will never be restored
 Everybody leaves me, my life's an open door
 It saddens me to say this
 But when it rains, it pours
 How do I survive in the eye of the storm?
 How can love exist, if there's no one that expresses it
 Everybody's hurting, look around you for the evidence
 Suicide is something that's becoming too repetitive
 Do I got the will to keep on going?
 That's a negative
 I'm so understanding, I see life from different angles
 But these people all around me love to give everyone labels
 As if they themselves are angels
 Picture perfect, wearing halos
 Hypocritical and ignorant, until you turn the tables on em'
 Fuck em' all, I never wanna fit in with em'
 Fuck that, I just want a break for a second
 Where the drugs at?
 I don't feel a thing when I'm faded, and I love that
 I forget it all when I'm gone, and I love that
 Yeah
 Under such a dark sky, I'm standing by a payphone
 Examining my fears, cause' I know I gotta face those
 Everyone's a fraud, cause' they pick and choose what they show
 I do what I want
 Instead of doing what they say so
 Turning into nothingness, I'm stuck in zero gravity
 Lately my life alter my perception of reality
 I wonder if somebody way above is just imagine me
 My mind is playing games, and my story is a tragedy
 I speak for those who can't, I've been playing devil's advocate
 I never wanted anything, I think I'm here on accident
 I try to stop the bleeding
 And I try to be compassionate
 But you can't understand me unless you know about abandonment
 It's D.R.B. for short
 Motherfucker that's the acronym
 I never been good enough
 I'm bad and I'm inadequate
 They see me as a villain
 Like I'm some sort of antagonist
 I got a black heart, and plus my energy is cancerous
 I went from bad to worse
 And damn the damage hurts
 I'm in a sea of flames
 With every wave it bursts
 I'm a burden to myself
 And I got so many concerned
 I thought I could be happy
 But I guess I'll never learn