Paper Cup

Thinking way too much
 Can't even fill a paper cup
 I can't make these things up
 I swear I've had enough, you know
 I'm stuck in the box
 I've put myself in too long
 I'm turning around
 But I still find myself in the ground
 Said you'd let me out
 But seems I've been here for some time
 Don't get the things you say
 The way you operate, no
 I guess you should go
 'Cause you openly just stay on my brain
 So, it's not the time for you to leave
 I don't ever want you next to me
 I find
 It's getting to harder to believe
 That things change
 The more you try and see
 I can't pretend that all this time I didn't see
 I wasn't fine
 With you living inside me
 Still don't understand
 Why I can't seem to make a change
 I need to get back out
 And live my life, and anyway
 I'm blessed to hold up
 I'm just trying to fill this paper cup
 I know I'm a mess
 Everyday I seem to cause me stress
 It's time to make a new start
 So I can fill a paper cup
 I want to pour my heart
 I wanna tell it to the stars
 I wanna glow with fire, so I can leave it all behind
 I find
 It's getting to harder to believe
 That things change
 The more you try and see
 I can't pretend that all this time I didn't see
 I wasn't fine
 With you living inside me
 I find
 It's getting to harder to believe
 That things change
 The more you try and see
 I can't pretend that all this time I didn't see
 I wasn't fine
 With you living inside me