Actuality

I took a trip to the past
 To look for the old me, see what I had
 Now I know how to last
 Maybe it's not the greatest trait I lacked
 The veil has lifted, I can see through the clouds, my newfound
 Visions have blessed my conscience, break outta the crowd
 Take it back, take it back
 You'll never understand the mindfulness you lack
 Outta whack, outta whack
 The picture grew and grew beyond what I knew
 Never ever gonna be, what you expected to see
 (Life lessons, are born from obsession)
 My eyes are open wide to thee
 Take a second, take a second to breathe
 The tension melts away
 Reveal reality
 No progression in a lack of expression
 Life lessons are born from obsession
 Now I see through comprehension
 Actuality
 My head starts to spin and spin
 Before I know it, I'm all the way in
 I can feel it in my gut
 I'm stuck in eternal pain
 I can't see anything
 Nothing seems to change
 All my thoughts, forever on display
 I have no one to blame
 Make the most of negativity
 This is the truth in front of me
 Make the most, negativity
 This is actuality
 I feel insane, I feel insane
 Fuck it
 I feel insane, these thoughts will always remain
 I feel fuckin' insane, these thoughts hammered in my brain