Without End

Right back at square one
 It's like I never left
 Like the night returned to morning
 Endless cycle of self
 Repeating over and over again
 Nothing
 But memories left on repeat
 They saturate my bloodstream
 They haunt me in my sleep
 A virus
 That I tried to deny
 Seeping from beneath
 Strangling my cries
 You don't know
 Oh, but I do
 How the silence fucking haunts you
 When you step from out of view
 Oh, now you'll see
 When my eyes go dark
 It was always me
 Now I'm right back at the starting line
 All my progress has gone
 Holding on to wasted time
 The hours turn to seconds
 I'm counting everyone
 I'll never find a savior
 Under my own loaded gun
 Addicted to the pain
 Except for my disdain
 Disgusted with the man who shares my face
 Standing in the mirror day after day
 Addicted to my own misery
 You only saw the end
 I saw where it began
 Self-destructive by my fucking nature
 Self-indulgence is the only way out
 Fuck!
 Buried underneath the weight of things I couldn't change