Ambulances

I remember ambulances pulling up when I was feeling tired
 And I couldn't put a fire out again
 I remember glove compartments full of stuff that you would never hide
 And I would try to justify it in my head
 I remember nights I felt like throwing up from looking at a photograph
 I swore that I would never put aside
 I remember hearing I don't know enough, so I gave up
 On showing up to fake a conversation as I'm watching you die
 Those pictures were faded
 When you came back into frame
 Like a saving grace back in 1918
 A refuge from the rain
 'Cause your eyes shine bright through the downpour
 Like montreux in the fall
 Like a clear blue sky on the heels of a storm
 That I thought was the end of us all
 When you call out my name
 The melody in your voice replaces memories that I hate
 The pessimist that's inside can't find a terrible point to make
 It's incredible how you shaped the sky
 You turned the tempest into a sunrise
 I remember bearing with anxiety and caring if you lied to me
 And holding on to hope I hid inside
 I remember swearing by sobriety to guarantee a side of me
 Inherited would never see the light
 I remember that commitment falling through and thinking I would follow you
 And driving when I couldn't see a sign
 I remember years I spent in solitude were haunted by the thought of you
 And conversations we could never have 'cause you died
 Those pictures were faded
 When you came back into frame
 Like a saving grace on the tagliamento
 A refuge from the pain
 'Cause the rain won't make any difference
 Your laughter is a radiant light
 Into the past to a dangerous time
 The ending is something that we get to write
 When you call out my name
 The melody in your voice replaces memories that I hate
 The pessimist that's inside can't find a terrible point to make
 It's incredible how you shaped the sky
 You turned the tempest into a sunrise
 You turned a hurricane to a clear blue skyline
 You made me unafraid of my own mind
 The world breaks everyone, but with you, I know I'm fine
 I'll never let you go again
 (I'll never let you go again)
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 I'll never let you go again
 (I'll never let you go again)