If You're Watching

I think I've found what I'm looking for -
 Behind those eyes an open door -
 That vacant stare which I adore -
 I'm your slut, and you're my whore -
 Spare yourself the aching heart and spare yourself the pain -
 Let us just makebleive it's yesterday again -
 And mother if you're watching, look away -
 And mother if you're wondering, but don't know what to say - Mother if you're watching, look away ... just look away - I think I found what I'm looking for -
 So hit the lights and shut the door -
 Listen carefully here's the socore -
 I'm your slut, and you're my whore -
 Spare yourself the aching heart -
 And spare yourself the shame -
 Let us just make believe it's yesterday again -
 And mother if you're watching, look away -
 And mother if you're wondering, but don't know what to say - Mother if you're watching, look away -
 It sometimes make me sick inside -
 Ashamed of a life that I must hide -
 I know you'll never understand -
 I'm sorry there's no wedding band -
 But deep inside there's still that child -
 Innocent in a world gone wild -
 Obedient of your moral code -
 Scarred by a Christian overload -
 But still I live by truth and love -
 I still have hopes in the above -
 I still have interest in the cross -
 But mother if your listening... shut if off