Mine to Mold

I guess I felt alone
 My anxious eyes had lost all signs of hope
 Set to self explode
 Set to self explode
 Are you out there?
 Can you hear me?
 Can you hear me?
 Are you out there listening and do you care at all
 All of the poets that I know
 Tell me that I need to move on
 That I gotta let it go
 That I never needed anyone
 What if I'm an optimist with common sense
 And everything I ever did was 'cause of this
 I fully know the consequence
 Why'd you let it come to this
 It's getting hard to live
 Fighting not to leave
 I don't wanna spend my life searching
 Standing on your porch
 Begging on my knees
 Take a little hit of what I need
 Can you hear me? I'm leaving
 Can you hear me? I'm leaving
 But I don't wanna go
 To see a miracle up close
 Not just in scholar notes
 I swear I miss your voice
 Not the sacraments and smoke
 Do I believe in happenstance or destiny
 Tell me is it left to chance or meant to be
 Still waiting on those promises
 I made myself and never kept
 It's getting hard to live
 Fighting not to leave
 I don't wanna spend my life searching
 Standing on your porch
 Begging on my knees
 Take a little hit of what I need
 Can you hear me? I'm leaving
 Can you hear me? I'm leaving
 But I don't wanna go
 I guess felt alone
 My anxious eyes now fight to find the hope
 No matter how this goes, the futures mine to mold
 I can hear the whispers
 I can hear you whisper
 I'm giving this my all