Say Yes to Violence

Better selves I could organize, I just wanna look strong
 If I become who I pretend to be, who have I been all along?
 A mild-mannered Canadian, useless in our passiveness
 Apologies for the northern shame, kill with gentleness
 Message came from the other side; "say yes to violence"
 There's a voice buried in the waves, keeps begging me to swim
 Moving fast to get out in front and wash the night out of the cloth
 And tell you how I got the scar as blood fills my mouth
 Hard to understand why
 Half of me, it wants to be enveloped
 Clouded in my vital signs, a second sight
 Burning out, I'm pushing back on the fading light
 Losing trust here on the ledge, I know what it could steal
 I'm giving in to indifference telling fantasy from real
 Try to make new memory, the lens blurred I tried to rush
 And felt the sweat sink through the bed the night I said too much
 Hard to understand why
 Half of me, it wants to be enveloped
 Clouded in my vital signs, a second sight
 Burning out, I'm pushing back on the fading light