Everywhere Yet Nowhere

A vague sense of wrong
 I should be lying, hide what I've done
 No, nothing
 Simply, nothing
 Nothing at all
 The minutes
 The hours wasted
 For such little gain
 I robbed myself from a better self
 Any dreams of grandeur; gone
 I closed my eyes on the obvious loss
 On the obvious loss
 Of control I've sadly reached
 Every waking moment
 Compulsively filled
 With others' irrelevance
 The few thoughts
 Remaining will never sprout
 Will never become peculiar
 Dazed, numbed by my lack of movement
 Any willingness now gone, now gone
 Life
 Passing me by
 The conversations I missed
 The people I didn't care to meet, long gone
 I should not wish for better anymore
 I will never be happier than before