Struggle to Sleep

I was wrong
 I struggle to sleep, put me on my knees
 Good lord, I beg you
 You gave me strength to stand
 But then you took it away, I don't deserve this
 You don't know what it's like to breathe
 In a world that believes a void is clarity
 So tell me, conscience can't you help me?
 I put my faith in you
 Because I can't make myself believe
 And now I feel so abused
 'Cause through it all, nobody could save me
 I'm hoping I can get out of here someday
 I know this soil too well, this pain is what I need
 Dear conscience, pull me underneath
 Pull me underneath
 Confined 'cause I can't clean up
 And I can't feel anything
 I'm too fucked up
 And God, you taught me every word is left unsaid
 When you're talking to the dead
 And I'm still talking to myself
 Conscience can't you help me?
 I put my faith in you
 Because I can't make myself believe
 And now I feel so abused
 'Cause through it all, nobody could save me
 I'm hoping I can get out of here someday
 I know this soil too well, this pain is what I need
 Dear conscience, pull me underneath
 I'll sell my guns, sell my heart and put my blades on the table
 Clean it up 'cause I'm not stable
 And do I fight fair, or do I fight myself?
 I swear, I'm just a half-empty heart
 Given no chance to restart
 I may never be good enough for myself
 I'd better, I'd better
 Clean up, clean up
 I didn't think I'd stay
 I didn't know I'd ever think this way
 But these days are overwhelming
 I'd turn away the pain
 But it's standing right in front of me
 I shouldn't have to hurt myself
 Just to feel something
 Just to feel something
 So tell me, conscience can't you help me?
 I put my faith in you
 Because I can't make myself believe
 And now I feel so abused
 'Cause through it all, nobody could save me
 I'm hoping I can get out of here someday
 I know this soil too well, this pain is what I need
 Dear conscience, pull me underneath