The Epic Song

I've been keeping hushed,
 I've been staying mum as of late
 It's not a matter of losing voice
 Or having nothing to say
 I've got a mouth that sows the seeds
 For every half truth the land sprouts up weeds
 For every day done another spore's fed
 Till rather than banter, there's briar instead
 Don't let that one leave that hell of a home
 Keep it to add to the skeleton's wardrobe
 His closets packed, more or less just the same
 Sewn lips stitched shut where secrets are safe
 You know I was a liar, I'm out and over shame
 I had a cross to carry, I had a head to hang
 Ox with cloven hoof, harlot without her pay
 I'm up there on that list, I'm down there in their rank
 Like a game of Russian roulette, lacking that lucky bullet
 The thrill is killed when nothing comes from it
 Have all of my efforts
 And therein lack of
 For pain or pleasure
 Been in vain?
 I'm so vain
 Its never enough, lips curl from smile to snarl so fast
 She's cast us in shade, oh the shame
 It seems to be its safe to say: I'm setting sail at storms at bay
 To rhythmic childish singsong steps
 Ashes to dust my kingdom's spent
 Sometimes I swear I hear her moan
 Sung to the tune of a mute tone
 Play dead, go for the throat
 Singe off the ends, make that spark smoke
 I wanted to see the good so bad
 I'd cross out the stumps to black out the past
 Now I don't wait for love or hate
 I just, I just, I just...
 Fuck eating, fuck sleep, less I've got less I need
 I'm out of the game but still up on my feet
 Who needs a hand in this process of dealing
 I've got everything I need
 You know me best, I don't study I cheat
 I don't need luck, I've got tricks up my sleeve
 Rigged dice, darts, chips, cards
 I've got everything I need
 Have all of my efforts
 And therein lack of
 For pain or pleasure
 Been in vain?
 It's never enough, lips curl from smile to snarl so fast
 She's cast us in shade
 Oh the shame