P.A.N.I.C.

I start to sense the panic
 Coursing through my veins
 A sickness so bleak and tragic
 I feel its symptoms now
 Just like a noose around my neck
 And I've spent my whole life
 Trying to prove to myself
 That I was good enough
 When in fact if I'd just opened my eyes
 I'd have been sure to find
 What it takes to get better
 I've lived my life
 Under the shadow of doubt
 I've lived my life
 Beneath these darkened clouds
 I've lived my whole life
 Just trying to find a way to get by
 Instead of fighting to make myself happy
 I'm cursed by this life I've lead
 Could you fix me?
 Because inside I think I'm dead
 Anxiety creeps up my spine
 And I lose all breath
 As it smothers me
 The world around me starts to fade to black
 And I feel nothing again
 I'm cold just like ice
 Forgive me for thinking
 That I would be just fine
 'Cause I don't think my heart can take much more
 Watching someone else I love, walk right out the door
 And I feel that time's wasting away
 Stuck with one foot in my grave
 And I am so afraid
 I am so afraid
 I've lived my life
 Under the shadow of doubt
 I've lived my life
 Beneath these darkened clouds
 I've lived my whole life
 Just trying to find a way to get by
 Instead of fighting to make myself happy
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 And one day I'll tell my sons
 To follow their dreams
 No matter the chaos it brings
 Life is too damn short
 To wallow in our self-inflicted misery
 And someday I'll prove to my sons
 That I'm truly sorry for everything
 Because I tried my best to love them
 While also doing what's best for...
 What's best for me
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 I want to live my life
 Without regret
 Sometimes I look in the mirror
 Disgusted by my own reflection
 That old familiar feeling
 Creeps back up from the depths
 To steal my breath again