Wishful Thinking

Hateful eyes staring back at me
 They scream revulsion like I'm a fucking disease
 Self-hate has completely consumed me
 And it comes as no surprise, I think I want to die
 Has my luck run out?
 Haunted by these voices, I don't have any doubts
 Now there's nothing left to hide
 Sometimes I want to die
 Die
 Get these ghosts out of my head
 Get them out, get them out, get them out
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 Let me tell you something about hating yourself
 It brings with it a lifetime full of agony
 Of broken promises and broken dreams
 And you know what they say about misery
 That fucking cunt just loves her company
 And no one could have predicted this
 At twenty-eight, my life's a goddamn mess
 Tried my best, tried to be stronger
 I hope this bullshit doesn't last much longer
 I never meant for you to see
 The awful bit of darkness locked up inside of me
 I buried it deep along with my fears
 And promised not to let it out after all these years
 And I'd do anything to bring myself back to life
 'Cause the whole time I wanted to die
 All I ever wanted was to feel alive
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 Hateful eyes are staring back at me
 They scream revulsion like I'm a fucking disease
 Self-hate has completely consumed me
 And it comes as no surprise, I think I want to die
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 I am nothing (nothing)
 Nothing more than a common disease
 Less than nothing (nothing)
 A fucking parasite who's just dying to feel
 I am nothing (nothing)
 Nothing more than a common disease
 Less than nothing (nothing)
 A fucking parasite, a fucking parasite
 I never meant for you to see
 The awful bit of darkness locked up inside of me
 I buried it deep along with my fears
 And promised not to let it out after all these years
 And I'd do anything to bring myself back to life
 'Cause the whole time I wanted to die
 All I ever wanted was to feel alive
 Feel alive