Alone Again

Now I'm alone again
 After thinking that I'd never be alone again
 Now I'm alone again
 After thinking that I'd never be alone again
 I woke up this morning in a house not a home
 I woke up this morning I was all on my own
 Since I woke up this morning I don't know what I'm doing
 I been all in my dome
 Everything is unknown
 Wonder if she'll cooperate and stay away
 How do I operate on the day to day?
 And least last night I didn't lay awake
 I freed myself of the anxiety I couldn't shake
 But new anxieties that vie for taking its place
 And make me feel ashamed of throwing shade are always taking shape
 I swear I do my best to never give em space
 But I feel like I'm gonna break
 Sometimes I need a break for goodness sake
 I'll just say it
 I'm feeling really scared
 All this working on my spirit's really working on my spirit
 Now I'm alone again
 After thinking that I'd never be alone again
 Now I'm alone again
 After thinking that I'd never be alone again
 Now I'm alone again
 After thinking that I'd never be alone again
 Now I'm alone again
 After thinking that I'd never be alone again
 Couple specifics and details
 I've been deleting pictures and emails
 And texts
 And trying not to feel stressed
 Each moment not knowing what's next
 In truth I didn't know what's next before
 But having her arm around my neck would help me rest assured
 But now that ship has left the shore
 For sure
 I hope she don't feel that I don't love her no more
 I hope she don't feel she's not worthy of love
 Might have had a shot at keeping her trust
 If I hadn't been so worried about all the above
 But
 None of that helps me now
 Being that I done gone and messed around
 And met my wife I built a life of days and nights of care around
 To then proceed to tear it down
 Now I'm alone again
 After thinking that I'd never be alone again
 I'm all alone again
 After thinking that I'd never be alone again
 Now I'm alone again
 After thinking that I'd never be alone again
 Now I'm alone again
 After thinking that I'd never be alone again
 Frontline without no shield
 It is way deeper than preparing my own meals
 But daily I'm reminded
 At least she won't put my stuff away
 Someplace where I won't find it
 Still often times I think of life and wish I could rewind it
 Back before I lost it 'fore I had to find it
 I wouldn't be despondent
 Being happy is the object
 I could always learn the way to make a omelet
 I fear she's the last of the cuties
 That won't only do me for diamonds and rubies
 And stuff
 And I got no one to go to the movies wit
 But maybe I been going to the movies too much
 And plus I'm dag near forty
 But thinking that way feels so corny
 Imma just try to enjoy myself
 But this is not where I saw myself
 Alone again
 After thinking that I'd never be alone again
 Now I'm alone again
 After thinking that I'd never be alone again
 Now I'm alone again
 After thinking that I'd never be alone again
 Now I'm alone again
 After thinking that I'd never be alone again