Raison d'être

I'm afraid to write
 about bands I like
 for fear of seeming
 That I am appealing
 to a fanbase that I
 would like to belong to
 Would like to report to
 And at the end of the day
 I wouldnt feel ashamed of knowing
 I was playing a dirty
 game
 Thats not me I dont really care
 What you think
 Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
 No fuck me
 I'm sorry its just the mood swing
 Its taking years and years
 of
 The bond of my brain dont
 quite work properly
 And im sorry for everyone and everything
 For my disability
 And doing normal people things like talk
 On the phone or go outside
 Or maintain friendships
 Or get a job
 Or maintain a simple tast to be
 Alive
 And in the context of society
 I am coming to terms with the
 Fact that I, the fact that I
 Just might be worth
 Nothing