Never Alive

There's a breathless view painted blue
 And I cannot be true, not like you
 So I walk away, everyday
 Let the years explain my lovely pain
 I throw a rock into the water
 and no ripples arrive
 like the snow up on the mountain
 I was never alive
 I know you're strong as we circle the pond
 Smell the cabin fire, snap the ice on the wire
 And you run ahead, on a cold white bed
 Down the orchard row, frozen apples in the snow
 I throw a rock into the water
 and no ripples arrive
 like the snow up on the mountain
 I was never alive
 And it's just one night, watching embers die
 And your hand's so warm, as we weather the storm
 There's a breathless view, painted blue
 And I cannot be true, I'm not like you
 I want to walk to the sunrise
 Let the mountain decide
 Let the searchers discover
 I was never alive
 I throw a rock into the water
 and no ripples arrive
 like the snow up on the mountain
 I was never alive