Spiraling

Why I can't
 Comprehend Why I m here?
 Why this
 Is more violent Every time?
 Why I can't
 Take control of this mess?
 Why this
 Feel so unreal?
 Why I need
 Venom and hate to release my pain?
 Why I need
 To see your blood to set my mind free?
 "Forever shine in the sun"
 Once the lie I've made
 The black birds of chaos
 Spiraling into the sea of sanity
 Why I can't
 Believe this is real?
 Why I can't
 Accept you're my disease?
 And I'll be forever shining in the sun
 On the edge
 Of the blade
 Balancing
 And
 I won't fall down
 I've wondered trough this circle for years
 And nothing seems to change (seems to change, never change)
 Because
 I've learned to live hiding in chaos
 Open eyes again hiding in chaos
 Repeating the journey as the hero
 Fragile ends infect my speech
 Spend some time among the broken
 Coexisting with the drama
 Why I can't
 Believe this is real?
 Why I can't
 Accept you're my disease?
 Why I can't
 Recognize you are not your
 Reflection in my mind?
 In this point
 There's no turning back
 Impossible to define
 A room with no doors
 With one thousand questions
 Answers drown in your
 Selfishness
 I been left to drown
 In my own spiral of chaos
 This is the end of this game
 My final song
 Burning my soul to an ash
 Erasing your name from my skin
 This is the end of this game
 Spiraling
 Forever shining in the sun
 Spiraling
 Once the lie I've made
 Black birds of chaos
 Venom and hate