A Decision

I made a choice years before I found my voice
 And that decision has been held strong by a commitment
 To keep holding on, could have shrugged it off like
 The rest a couple years later just to keep with the pack
 I felt a connection and found something to believe in
 Always questioned myself til I found where I belong
 This was a decision made consciously of my own volition
 I found a place to call my own
 One dreadful night I swore would be my last
 I felt the weight lift off the world
 And put this x across my hand
 Your "fun", it leaves scars, once you bury your friends
 It really tears you apart
 I'm still holding
 Onto this life that always seemed to feel right
 When things are broken
 It's the one thing that feels permanent
 Your "fun", it's taught me,
 That to be myself I'll never pick up that drink
 My decision is made
 I made a choice
 Born in the wake of tragedy and pain
 To forever seize control and remain the master of my fate
 A decision to grow
 A decision to believe
 A decision to embrace who I was meant to be
 A definite choice shaping the person I am
 A decision was made to be straight edge