Gossamer Dreams

In such vile perpetual agony
 I search through the winding
 Dirty streets for something
 Streetlights illuminate
 The gossamer dreams
 Of this horrible city
 Taunting me, absorbing me
 In an apathetic lassitude
 I drift through moments of want
 Numbing myself with such
 Glittering distractions
 Meeting desperate eyes
 Through the grey haze
 Of cigarette smoke
 At the bottom of every glass
 I start to see the gossamer fray
 Leaving tatters of disillusionment
 To weave into my skin
 And its unbearable burden
 Drags me into a pitiful forgotten absence
 Night after night
 Alcohol leaves a weight of lead in my bones
 That will crush
 All of the lightness of joy
 And everything I find
 In this ugly dream
 Will be nothing
 Nothing
 Nothing
 Will be nothing
 But dust