Nightmare

All I'm seeing is red
 I'm caught inside of my head
 I need to learn how to let go and just take a breath
 This demon inside me
 Is vicious and frightening
 No remorse for the ones I love
 Will he feed again? Will I let him in?
 Paralysed
 I'm living with a nightmare
 Tearing apart my loved ones, I know it's not fair
 Tighten the rope, I'm giving up before it's too late
 I start to choke, I'm blacking out but I awaken
 Is it all part of a nightmare?
 I'm wide awake, but not in control
 Seems too overwhelming
 To shake free from his hold
 I feel weak at the knees
 But I'm tired of losing sleep
 The only way I'll break free
 Fight the nightmare fighting me
 I tried to kill myself December 17th
 (What's come of me?)
 The person that I once was almost got the better of me
 I'm paralysed
 I'm living with a nightmare
 Tearing apart my loved ones, I know it's not fair
 Tighten the rope, I'm giving up before it's too late
 I start to choke, I'm blacking out but I awaken
 I hope you know, you brought out the worst in me
 I push you all away
 To keep my mind at ease
 The nightmare comes and takes my strength
 I feel I'm caving in
 I'm lost within my thoughts
 Death's come to collect my soul
 The reaper looks and turns away
 It's now a story to be told
 Paralysed
 I'm living with a nightmare
 Tearing apart my loved ones, I know it's not fair
 Tighten the rope, I'm giving up before it's too late
 I start to choke, I'm blacking out but I awaken
 I can't go living the way I feel
 When you have put me through so much hell
 The thought of heaven is so unreal
 When I've been living through so much hell