Hard to Love What You Kill

had my finger on the trigger so long
 seems like I'd shoot again by now
 so hard when you can't stand the sound
 and it's hard to trust
 in the rust that collects on my '44
 and I don't want to shoot anymore
 and it's hard! Aint it hard - to love what you kill
 I gathered your remnants and cleaned up the stains
 I took care? we once were friends
 but it's hard when your song never ends
 and it's hard enough to be in love
 but it's hard! Aint it hard - to love what you kill
 I still can hear you're crying
 'n hearse wheels rolling by carrying a body that's lost
 so hard to be in love with a ghost
 and it's hard enough to be in love
 but it's hard! Aint it hard - to love what you kill
 I've payed a lot of debt
 and I do not regret the blood that I've spilt so well
 but it's hard when you're burning in a hill
 and it's hard! Aint it hard...