Trouble in Paradise

Paradise as we know it
 Is long gone
 Paradise as we know it
 Has faded away
 Here we go again
 Arguing about this that and the third
 All this bs i heard
 Now it is awkward
 People Take notice everyday
 That our honeymoon stage has
 The other day i had to think
 Why am i putting up with all of this I'm at my sink
 Trying wash my face cause my eyes teary and pink
 I care too much I get it okay
 I pray this Drama would
 On my momma i never thought we would be
 In this state of hate i saw you and me
 Going the distance
 Establishing longevity
 Probably engaging you out of school at 23
 At 24 i envisioned us two settling
 At 25 i saw church aisle peddling with flowers
 And in the later hours of that night we'd probably post all on our Feed
 The happiest day of our lives later I'll plant my seed
 But i didn't succeed in planning g for the worst
 And i was too selfless i always had to put you first
 No matter what i sacrifice all for you
 All this effort
 All this love
 And please look what grew
 A relationship on the edge
 We would be friends regardless is what we pledge
 But it's hard cause I'm scarred and now I'm numb
 All because you wanna act like i am dumb
 And now it's hard for me to commit to someone new
 Cause I'm the end i only really want you
 Paradise as we know it
 Is long gone
 Paradise as we know it
 Has faded away
 I admit I'm not perfect
 I've been hurt a few times
 I got scars that ain't healed
 I ignored all the signs
 You told me don't waste your time you confided in me
 You trust me way too much
 You made this image of we
 I've experienced love before i often compare
 I try my hardest to stop because to you it's no fair
 I am your first everything it's like you only know me
 You only know us
 Its like all that you see
 In your future
 And that scares me cause i honestly don't know
 If i was place forever or just for to grow
 Fell in love with your potential
 I think I'm married to our time
 I love you way too much to hurt you
 Hate doubt still present on my mind
 Why would you want me to stay
 If that means I'll be hurting you more
 I know this love affairs naive
 We don't know what is in store
 That's beauty i suppose
 You asked me what we are i couldn't answer sadly i froze...
 I don't wanna wake up and find out you're not there, no no no no
 I don't wanna wake up and find out you're not there, no no
 Just want to see you tossing and turning in my bed
 Run your fingers through my head
 Seems like you're gone forever