I've Got Friends

I've got friends
 Trading their lives
 For the first class seat
 Where alone they make it look easy
 For the passing people
 To be impressed
 Though they are dead
 And I've got friends
 Who were married
 And it set my bones
 Beginning to shake
 Saying love is a choice
 Well now they chose it
 And there they sit
 Trying to make it
 Something that it ain't
 Nowadays you can
 Make a show of your life
 To convince yourself of its worth
 What do you think
 Of my private vacation
 Do the blues look deep
 Does the suite look big enough
 Under my skin I had a feeling
 It was all going wrong
 I hid away
 But then the devil came home
 Now I got nowhere left to be
 Try to face him with the day
 Did I tell you I was lost out there
 Sitting in the sand drunk
 Watching the bay
 Staring at a cruise
 That was sailing in
 Under my burnt skin
 I was laughing to myself
 And I couldn't say how I had come to this
 When I was a kid
 I had my eye on the score
 Terrifying times
 Got me frozen and stiff
 Brought me too close
 To quitting, I guess
 The will did not come back
 All the things I had hoped
 That you would say
 Had long been addressed
 Fail now to be judged
 Not a faint light of hope
 For which to stay
 Lost in the dread
 I feel a rush out of time