Non-Believer

We walk under these city lights
 We stand under the darkest nights
 And I can't imagine anything more up there beyond the sky
 I went to church on Christmas Eve
 For the first time in a century
 I sang the carols but I could not believe
 This non-believer
 My dad said, "Son, there's nothing else
 Before you love someone you gotta learn to love yourself
 Know when they're gone they will be truly be gone
 So don't you waste your time"
 But I wasted time in the dye I cast
 I will not blame this on my past
 I broke your heart
 Just messing around
 This non-believer
 Open up my eyes to find
 You've learned a few tricks in your time
 And I spend my days just treading water
 Never learning how to swim
 My friends and family call me up
 Say "You're all right, but what the fuck?"
 What were you thinking
 Choose your head, foolish non-believer"
 It's buried deep but I suspect
 There is something here to resurrect
 People collide, buildings collapse
 Gotta try again
 I don't believe there is a plan
 Feels too much like an accident