Should've, Would've - ft. SadBoyProlific

Yeah, when I'm alone, I think about the time we spent together
 I fall to pieces when thinking he probably treats you better
 Our love was different, so it's hard to set the tone
 You living out in California, I've been stuck inside a different weather
 I often wonder if you thought I deserved you
 Too late to say it, but you know I'd never hurt you
 And now I wonder if love is really a virtue
 You made me realize that I never really deserved you
 You taught me how to love, now it's something I don't believe in
 I thought you were the one, but now I struggle through the seasons
 How can I be so in love with someone so misleading
 And how could you just throw away my heart without a reason?
 So many things that I should get off of my chest
 I just sit inside my room and reminiscing in my head
 Lately I've been feeling like my soul has been a mess
 And all I really want is for you to love me like I'm dead
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 Yo, last time I saw you was your back turned walking
 How many people gotta leave 'fore I see I'm the problem?
 You'll finally find some better guy who isn't shy and awkward
 And I'll be here alone 'cause my fears are unconquered
 Tired of people breaking trust and saying that I'm not enough
 Why am I only okay when I'm off the blunt?
 Feeling like I get my heart broke every single month
 Might just give it up, I don't even give a fuck
 Tired of this feeling, got it every single minute
 My mind like a vinyl 'cause it's skipping while it's spinning
 Popping painkillers, but I think I finally get it
 I'm only killing myself, yeah, the meds won't fix it
 But, that's just the way that I cope
 And honestly, I'm just wishing that they leave me alone
 Lift the pen like a shovel, just wanna die in a hole
 'Cause these midnight thoughts got me feeling dead and cold