complex (demo)

I'm 21
 The edge is razor-thin
 Between being numb
 And feeling everything
 Good days only serve as relief again
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 Now I'm watching as I
 Waste away my days and then
 It's a cross dissolve
 It's a scene I've played before
 And the leading role that I thought I'd hold
 Doesn't listen to me anymore
 But I'm wearing his boxers
 I'm being a good wife
 We won't be together
 But maybe the next life
 I need him like water
 He lives on a landslide
 I cry in his bathroom
 He turns off the big light
 I'm being the cool girl
 I'm keeping it so tight
 I carry him home while
 My friends have a good night
 I need him like water
 He thinks that I'm alright
 I'm not feeling human
 I think he's a good guy
 But it's complex
 It's a complex
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 It's a complex
 I'm a complex
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 Triangular
 I can see them now
 Three points at which
 I let myself down
 I was just a girl
 What's the excuse now?
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 Too regular, this pattern
 I've been taking shelter in
 Reaching new highs
 When I was 19
 I wanted to die
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 Now I just want to kill you
 But I don't want to paint you the victim
 And I talk a good game
 I'd die for just the promise you'd listen
 But I'm wearing his boxers
 I'm being a good wife
 We won't be together
 But maybe the next life
 I need him like water
 He lives on a landslide
 I cry in his bathroom
 He turns off the big light
 I'm being the cool girl
 I'm keeping it so tight
 I carry him home while
 My friends have a good night
 I need him like water
 He thinks that I'm alright
 I'm not feeling human
 I think he's a good guy
 But it's complex
 It's a complex
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 It's a complex
 I'm a complex