Denial

I refuse to believe this is what's left for me
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 If this is real, is this the fucking reckoning?
 Calcify my bones or whatever is left of me
 We die to feel alive
 My eyes slowly closing, but I am spinning on the inside
 We wanna survive by never feeling our pain
 Refuse to acknowledge reality and push it away
 Does anyone have the strength to look inside our head?
 The only issue is everyone wishes they were dead
 The only issue is everyone wishes they were dead
 What a fucking shame
 But I just gotta know
 How long does it burn?
 Is there any chance I could make it out of here?
 How long will it hurt?
 I refuse to believe this is what's happening
 Over and over again
 This is the time that I am searching for truth
 Since jumped in front of my bullet I've hid away from the news
 And I loved you 'til death even though some won't agree
 So I buried you in the back, so you're closer to me
 I am the one you buried deep down inside
 There is nowhere to run and there is nowhere to hide
 Take a look in the mirror
 To see what you have become (see what you have become)
 It's a downward spiral
 No chance of denial
 You'll never escape
 From what you have done
 Struggle to feel alive
 If this is real, is this the fucking reckoning?
 Calcify my bones or whatever is left of me
 We die to feel alive
 My eyes slowly closing, but I am spinning on the inside
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 Spinning in the inside
 As what is left of me
 Bludgeoned by clarity
 My eyes are burning red
 I can't believe that you're dead
 (I can't believe that you're dead)